Sunday, September 28, 2014



Its been a month i was here. New place, new workplace, co-workers, environment, foods, culture... yes, everything is new to me now.. i don't mean to be racism, yes i was here for 3 years before during my degree..its just a bit weird when i come here for working, not studying.. its seems awkward, for being away with my family, fiance, pets and life in Sabah. everything was left there, and i am here for new life, and new job. 

i was an educator aka tutor, researcher and coach before this. Teaching and coaching, researching are all my life.. but now, when i shifted into this job, its was like.. very unfamiliar and rushing. i need to learn everything and catch up my tasks here.. now that i became a boss to my staffs, its seemed so odd and hesitate feeling to instruct them to do this,this and this.. because they are senior to me, i just came here for a month, and they were working here for years, more than 5-6 years i say. and its not like myself, to ask them to do a simple things that i commit i could do.. 

when i first came here, i met some friends.. my senior became my friend, and that i am so grateful to know them. They help me to catch up everything, and teach me about the job. You know, job as a boss, researcher, physiologist and educator are not easy.. but what i do here is all of these.. i am became a leader to my department, i am doing research study while doing administrative tasks, doing clinical testing and physiology to the athletes and a very new task is educating other staffs here. Okay, this is my working scope. isn't it exciting? amazing? or what??? what i can say now is.. office will be my second home after this. ngeee.

okay, stop talking about working. 

i am actually have thing to think about.. which is my M******* that will coming soon. Yes, another two months to go and i am here like a PM, busy doing this and that, and no time to manage for my big day. arggghhhh. but thanks to my family, for being so consideration and responsible for my big day.. i love my family!

okay. that's all from me. daaaaa.

Monday, September 22, 2014

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Dear darling;

hereby, i declare that....

you are my beautiful prince NJ..and i am engaged to you!


Your Fiance, Eyanz Azeanthy Paiman

I Love My Job;

i am currently away from my families, hometown, my fiance and everything i used to love. Away from my university and my car. i was taking a risk to work away from everything i have planned for all this time.. sadness, lonely, longing.. everything makes me feel sad.. but life is worth to explore.. it's not me,who planned out this way.. deep down to my heart, i am still sane to think about my future.. this is God's will..and this is my faith..and i am so grateful for what i have.. so please be rational with professionalism... for that, thank Allah for this way.. alhamdulillah...

i love my job! really, i love it!

'cause i am a woman, please don't underestimate me.. for now i have given a chance to be leader to my department, and there's a lot of things i need to catch up, to learn and practice.. to be frank, i was down before, i just realized that i am too young to be a boss for my staffs.. they have been working here for years and suddenly came me, at this young age, with no fully experiences in this field, become their leader. oh Ya Allah, this is a challenge.. You gave me opportunity to take over such a brilliant position, and now You're testing me if i could make it,or not.... Ya Allah, please make me at ease...
But again, life is worth living.. when i was like..wanted to give up, Allah gave me a courage and opened my eyes to see the world clearly.. i could see the opportunity in front of me.. there is a reason why i'd chose to be here.. so i closed my eyes, praying for Allah's forgiveness, for being so irrational and forgot His gift to me.. just when i realize thing is not really difficult like i thought. i slowly climbs up the mountain..with passionate and patience.. and now, i am a step forward to my self-actualization.. and that's i realize that i love my job with wholeheart.. Alhamdulilah..

so bravo! i am so bravo! 


Thank you Allah;