Been caught it up.

Peace be upon you,

Going to share bits of my experience currently and yups, been so caught with matters recently. so the thing i want to highlight are,

Last Monday i went to Tambunan Sabah to visit my bestie Lydia Micheal, accompanied by my love. So regrettable that i haven't own any photos with her during my travel yesterday, but i sure will keep that memories alive in my soul. very thankful to NJ for the transport he served to me. i was sure he will never lets me ride a bus or taxy to go somewhere alone, that's why he was pleasure to drive me somewhere else.thanks dear!

one more thing, i never satisfied our hometown internet service here. it just stuck me somewhere i can't surf internet and it blocking me from skyping with my love. i can tell that our internet connection was failed here, i don't know whether it is due to weather or what. the matter is, i even can't download any data to aid my learning process. very disappointed! 

i found things are not really hard to implement,as long as we have that motivation in our soul. so as this year is near-to-the-end, so i am going to list some of my to-do-list wish, so that i can run it directly to the main goals. i have been caught with many things in my mind, one of them is, about to build a 'formal relationship' with NJ. heee.yups, may be.=)

so i am going to sleep now. and tomorrow will be my turn to blog-walking to your blog. Thanks all for reading my post. may god blessing you.amin~~~

just like that.

Today is a blast feelings in which finally i arrived on my hometown-earth. Glad to see NJ when he fetched up me at Kota kinabalu International Airport and i can see his wide-sweet-smile once he found me there.

But the confuse was, my parent did coming to Kota Kinabalu to fetch me up, but then NJ also did hoping to drive me home, now i got confusing, the final decision was, going see my parent at our UCA apartment and go lunch with them. 

Now i got the feeling same with what a daughter-in-law feels when she don't know for whom she should spend out his time for awhile.Just now i felt like i'm a daughter-in-law to my parent-in-law. huh. what a weird feeling.

okey, i should back to the reality just now, i should stop talking nonsense and finds a best way to behave fairly. then i should go first. nice to see you guys.=)

Youcam photos are always awesome. I love Holga'es effects on pictures, and this youcam shows same effects of it. and as always, i prefers less editing ( i always put photos without any edited) that it gonna shows a real and natural imagination of myself.  

i was here.

Peace be upon you,

After i have been a situation that gave me two choices, just in a couples of days, i found many thing out of my sight. i tried my best to make it away and finally i found the best answer. and glad to say, i've got many firsts. it maybe sounds annoying, but trust me, i am not ignorant, i am just optimist.

so after been crazy thinking the solution for days, even weeks, finally today is the blast of my days. i was here and really, i was damn happier like jumping over the skies!

And dear my readers @followers,

very apologize i can't drop by to your blog recently, i finds hard to spend lots time surfing internet and walk-and-reading-blogs due to my damn hectic time. i hope u can understand me, by the way, i always search time even a while to read up yours,but again, i maybe can't drop a comment your post, but still, i was there for you. i really meant it.

Thank you all.~~=)

Been.

Finally,

i have been crazy thinking of the best way of my wonders. 

i bet something will up in a few days and i should get prepare for that. 

guess what?i never know my fate, i can't tell my fate truthfully, but see how much i have been through before, 

i feels much easier and at ease on my foot. 

and the best solution was deciding of going back to my hometown, and leave my 'jobs as a student' for awhile.

so the conclusion is, i am going back to my hometown on next-week. No matter what, i should come back to my hometown, and see my family. 

that all from me.thank you.=)

Matter

Peace be upon you,

The matter is,

i should come back to my hometown as soon as possible as something happened to myself.

i am feeling not really good right now. Something disturbing my mind from being relax and stay good here. i just can't stay cool that blocking my blood circulation to my brain, that's really impedes my thinking.

to make this clearly from panic disorder, the only way to get better is coming back to where i should back. 

Dear friends @ teammates,

i don't mind to burden you with troubles, the thing is, i can't bear up this anymore, i can't just sit back and let it all happen, i can't ignore what i was thinking now. i can't sorry you for this, i'm apologizes for what i am going to do next-week.

All i need to do is praying and hoping god to save my-self for my final exam. Please save me god.

On foot.

LIFE IS ERRATIC.

Time was counting and it elapses day after day.  I don't really care what happen in the beginning of my route, i just care the thing i works on now, on the foot of my days. i waits it patiently, and i swear that's will be a great moment in my life. 

and last, but not least,


I MISS HIM LIKE CRAZY.

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Peace be upon you,


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thanks all=)

The real me.

Peace be upon you,

To talk about the real of me is not my favorite actually. but when people asked to know me, i don't know what words can describes mine. even close people can't 'read' me clearly. i admit i was difficult to be understand, and they said the same thing what i've wrote down here. but one i found out about myself is, i never want to be other people, which meant i always be myself whenever and wherever i go. that's the single words i could described myself. 

and to talk about my achievement, i got it plentiful! but i never proud of that, i always thought it just a little matter. it's not really matter. but don't get me wrong, i always grateful for god for the gifts i got.

to rant about life is another story. i found another ways in my life where i finally could breath easily. it's not only about earning money, but also satisfaction, that i always wanted in my whole life. 

 p/s last weekend i was invited to perform songs during our Closing of Sukan Antara Faculti UiTM 2011 at Stadium UiTM on this weekend. can you imagine there are hundreds people there and i am going to perform in-front of them??!!hhuh. nervous is overwhelming me. please give me bless all..=)

i want more.

Peace be upon you,

i watched Twilight film just because want to see Edward Cullen. Edward is wonderful, and Bella is beautiful as well. They were perfect to be a couple. Just in past couple of months, i read a lot about them, and i looked for them everyday to figure out what exactly happened between them (that's inspired others to fascinating this movie). and the great thing i found out was fascination and satisfaction. Not like other films, this film really cares about spectators' appetites, and it drove me addicted and excited watching it! i just can't wait even a while to watch it with someone else (of course, NJ) again. 

Talk about Edward, i don't really fancy of his beautiful face, i actually kind of person who didn't mind how people looks like,  seriously, i used to be friends with others unconditionally, (as long as they don't mess up with me). Meanwhile, i love how Edward acted in this films, how he made this film succeed, i thought any kinds of films won't be succeed if the actors/actresses didn't play their action, truthfully. this time i was right, isn't it?

and dear readers, i actually going to share a set of Friendship album, which is taken during our making of videos. So here we are,

Not really a full-set of album actually, this is only a pieces of them, and if you mind to figure out more, just click on my PHOTOBLOG and enjoy it more.

# and oh, i officially finished my Medical cover on Basketball tournaments yesterday. fortunately, i'd finished it easily, so i can go proceed to my medical report afterwards. Talks about medical, i just love being a medic-person, yups, i always love helping sick-people, yet i might up to highest level of my actualization soon. InsyaAllah...thanks god for giving me blesses.=)

In the back.

Peace be upon you,

To recall again what people called a sweet memories in back drives me amusement indeed. I don't know what the matter make me love this song so much, but the important is, this song meant a lot to me. I can't explain in single way how sweet our memories, but this is what i feels now. 

i still could remember for the first time i had a date with NJ.To be honest, i was nervous that my heart actually stopped me to relax during that time!but that's feeling was happiness to me, when i saw him for the first time, (we never dated each other even though we already dating for months that time!), and i swear, this song made me crazy when he dedicated it to me. 

'I NEED LOVE AND THIS IS I NEED FROM YOU'

To express what i have been through before always touching my heart. i was heart-lost years ago and this song created undefined feelings over me. To go on with new relationship is not easy, that's the truth. In another words, i was broken when NJ came into my life, but he was smart, when he won my heart and gave meaning to my life.

this song inspired me to be strong, simply to say, it gave back my life into light and happiness. thanks a lot to this awesome song. =)

Go On yeah.

i always feel sorry whenever i offends others. some asked me for being a nihilist, while others influenced me to be kindness for it . i tried my best to give the best to all people surrounding me, but sometimes i feel it gonna swallows me either. yet killing me soon.

Relationship always inspired me for being motivated all around, but in the corner of my sensible heart, i always fear whenever the awful time will come into my life. i don't want to hurt anyone, i shouldn't make it easy as long as they asks me for favor.

To admit i was in dilemma right now is hurting me badly. sometimes i asked him to leave me alone, for awhile, for being independent in my life. but to let me go was impossible for him. He always know how to fulfill my days, he was trying to make TRUST between us since our first blind-date, almost two years ago.

i thought he was perfect to make me happy-go-lucky. i should never let him sad and cry anymore, i must be concern of him anyway. 

Etiquette Portraitures

Peace be upon you,

Had a great time with my bestie, Lydia Micheal once again last-week before we went for our camping on Lopo On Call at Bukit Lopo Selangor last Friday. Make up by my bestie, and photos are taken by her too. Sp here we are,

Hello December!!!

Peace be upon you,

i'm counting the days, day after day, to say Good bye to November, and say Hello to December. i'm greeting this month as i feel excited to get my self into amusement=)

# Don't ask me how much i feel now, the real is, i just felt like jumping!my heart can't stop beating fast, i want jumps to the date, and i save the beautiful date just for me and him=)

on this morning, one of UiTM's band group called me for favor, they want me to be their performer on February 2012, one of huge concert i thought. but i must say sorry for them, as i won't be around here on February, i am going back to Sabah for semester breaks. very regret for any inconvenience thing. 

and also,last night, a reporter from other faculty asked me for interview. i don't have ample time for the interview. so he asked me for interview via online. fortunately, if not, they must be offended by me. again.i will fulfills their will tonight. InsyaAllah.=)

i need to attend a class right now.see you all afterwards ya=)