what inside of my mind right now?

what i am thinking now?

there are three things inside of my mind now.

*my head is spinning round. very compacted, full of mind, hardened and heavy thinking about my final, maybe. my mind is just darkened and heaviness. i got a very critical headaches last night, and last night i was bedridden for the all night. i took my rest, and today is our Psychology paper. i didn't study anything till i wake up on this morning and revise them, chapter by chapter, again and again. and i am glad and blessed with the questions, its so awesome and aided myself too much. Thank god.=)

*i just want to fly away, back to my home town!!!

i just can't wait for my return. i am so impatience and really, i am hoping to dream about it tonight. i just want to back and meet all my beloved one. i missed my family, friends and boyfriend so much. its about 1weeks and 4days, before i come back to Sabah.huh, can't wait for that. but i should be patient...controlling my mind and relaxing my mind and body...focuses on the upcoming papers exam..and okey, i can wait for that moment.=)

* i was thinking about my boyfriend. seeing him by skyping made me glad and happy. MY HEART WILL GO ON TO YOU darling. really misssssssssssss you...and gud nite my pretty boy. Tata~~~

Not like usual.

Today i had a paper exam. its been our first paper, ensuing of Psychology paper by tomorrow afternoon.

so today i came to examination's hall with full of input in my mind, and entered into hall with some prays. 

sat next to the top-guy who always trying to get my attention, but in hope to avoid from them. within 1 hour and half, i had finished my question and guy, i finished them too early and finally i am the one who looked so monotous and blurred there. huh. i shouldn't finish them early. but i am blessed for the question. its a kinda great opportunities. once the time up, we're asked to exit the hall quietly. as my stepped forward, one of my friend came and asked me about to wear shawl. its just like a new style that i used by myself. 'yan,you don't look usual, you always looked gorgeous but today is so super-gorgeous'..laughing with joyous because of funny and hilarious. actually, today i dressed my self, not like usual. a little bit of fashion made them looked me different from usual. still simple but don't know what made them so curious and compelled at me. well, because today is my first paper and i am going to fly away to Sabah for my 4months break soon, so i just want to create a new environment inside mine. and tomorrow gonna be my second paper, huh. i am gonna be crazy revising my study tonight.

And something bad and weird happened to me just in a couple of hours ago. i got some phone's messages. not only one, but more than that. how come she talked me like that?? what the jealous feeling she feel ah?haha. i am blessed for being my self..and i don't care if people wanna messing up with me. its up to them. 'Beautiful girl is always liar and arrogant!'.damn. what the foolish msg. i am gonna laugh for the all night because of  this. read the msg in-front of my friend and made some funny laugh. its so immatured. and some else msg that made me hilarious. don't worried, i knew who the mastermind of this fooling things and no need to worry because i won't tell anyone about YOUR TRUE COLORS. 

oh, i started to talk nonsense here. i am taking my dine right now, but funny msg made me lost of appetite. however, it wouldn't effect my study. i am doing well here. so before i take off my finger from this keyboard, here is some words that i dedicated to her, because i know, she will and always review and review my blog. thank you but you gonna cry for this because,

Dear girl,

ME and all my friends already know who you are, and please be aware that you're not my challenger. be mature if you want people to respect on yourself. Doing baseless accusion on mine will only destroy yourself and i know, you hate me that much because you're fear and felt challenged by myself. i know it. so please think under conscious-mind. Thank you for being my top-outspoken critics. watch your words careful. thank you.

Monologue.

Aku hanyalah manusia biasa yang tidak berdaya mengubah segala ketentuan Illahi dalam duniawi ini.

Aku punya prinsip dan falsafah yang menjadikan aku tabah dan berbeza dari insan-insan lain.

Aku punya identiti dan cara tersendiri yang membezakan aku dari personaliti dan pandangan orang lain.

Aku sering dibelenggui persoalan dan permasalahan yang menguji kesabaran, tetapi aku tidak pernah menyalahkan sesiapa, apatah lagi menyalahkan NYA. 

Aku hanya manusia lemah yang tidak mampu menghalang mereka daripada terus menaruh harapan dan berperasan terhadapku. Aku bukan sombong sepertimana yang digambarkan oleh mereka, aku yakin mereka berkata demikian kerana belum mengenali ku sedalamnya. Mereka yang rapat denganku pasti akan mengatakan aku seorang yang peramah dan mudah berkomunikasi. Aku memang peramah, tetapi peramahku itu ada batasnya. Aku bukan Single seperti dahulu, aku kini sudah dimiliki. Namun status 'in a relationship' itu tetap menjadi perkara terakhir dalam prinsip mereka kerana sampai sekarang mereka masih menunggu dan menaruh harapan terhadapku.

Aku tersenyum bukan bermaksud aku mula memberi hint kepada mereka untuk mendekati ku. Aku menjawab pertanyaan mereka bukan bermaksud aku ingin membiarkan mereka terus menaruh harapan terhadapku. Aku tidak pernah memberi harapan dan kata-kata manis yang membuatkan mereka terus ingin mendapatkan ku. Aku bukan lah seseorang yang mahir berkata-kata dan bermulut manis terhadap kaum lelaki, aku yakin sikap dan penampilanku yang bersahaja dan selamba di hadapan mereka tidak layak digelar rupawan dan jelitawan seperti yang mereka katakan terhadapku. Penampilanku yang ringkas dengan tatarias wajah yang seadanya tidak layak dipuja dan didambakan seperti yang mereka lakukan. Aku tidak pernah menampakkan sikap manja dan kelemahan ku di hadapan mereka, namun mereka tetap mendedikasikan perkataan ayu, lembut dan sopan kepadaku.

Aku bukan materialistik, yang hanya melihat kepada harta benda semata-mata. Aku merasa pelik dan tercabar apabila mereka mula berkata tentang kehidupan dan kelebihan masing-masing, bahkan mengatakan yang mereka mampu membahagiakan dan menjamin kehidupan yang mewah untukku jika aku menerima mereka. Kekayaan dan kemewahan bukan segala-galanya bagi aku. Aku punya segala-galanya dan mampu memiliki segala-galanya, kenapa harus aku mementingkan kekayaan mereka semata-mata?

Aku sering menghancurkan hati insan yang bergelar lelaki. Pasti akan ada yang terluka keranaku. Aku bukan pemain cinta atau playgirl. Kerana SETIA lah aku menolak mereka dari hidup ini. Aku bukan pendamba cinta, tetapi aku mampu bertahan dan setia kepada yang satu, kepada yang sudah memilikiku. Aku menolak cinta mereka kerana pendirian ku yang tegas dan komitmen yang tinggi terhadap hubungan ku yang sudah sedia ada ini. Namun mereka masih menaruh harapan dan terus menanti jawapan dariku. Maka ku kira ini bukanlah salahku, kerana mereka sendiri yang menginginkan seperti itu.

Dengan itu, aku berkali-kali memohon maaf kepada mereka-mereka yang telah, sedang dan bakal terluka dengan diri dan pendirian ku ini. Maafkan aku. Maafkan aku. dan Maafkan aku.

 KERANA AKU TIDAK MAMPU MENYINTAI LEBIH DARI SEORANG INSAN.

Aku menulis bukan kerana perhatian, tetapi kerana luahan semata-mata. sekali lagi aku memohon maaf atas keterlanjuran kata-kata ini. Aku yakin pasti mereka akan membaca luahan ini, kerana mereka sentiasa mengikuti perkembangan semasa blog ini dari dulu sampai lah sekarang. Terima kasih kerana sentiasa menjadi pengikut dan pembaca setia blog ini. Semoga mereka memahami perasaan seorang wanita yang terlalu ingin dimengertikan ini. May god blessing you all.

                                                                                          - By Noor Azeanthy @ Eyanz Binti Paiman

                                                                                                           1.15 am / 27 apr 2011

He has a favor on me

Guess who?

he is a fame photographer of my-metro, the famous magazine in Malaysian.he made a called on me by this late evening. asked me to be his model for his fashion photo-shoot. i ever asked him for the reason why did they chose me as their model. he said that he saw me from our university magazine. yups. a months ago i had a photo-shoot session with University exposure 2011, and i did it with some athletes from University Malaya. 

'you just so euthral and imposing mine. there are something special about yourself, your face, lips and eyes that's made people looking at you and i love the way you bring out the fashion as an exposure'. i was laughing when i heard about it. he was a famous photographer and now he is persuading me for being his model, that's so impressive and of course everybody going to cheer theirself when somebody like him asking them for photo-shoot.

                                       

its just like a polished chance, and he said that he's going to publish me by my-metro magazine, if i take his offer as an opportunity. i had a trouble for decision making because,

i don't want to be famous,

i don't want mine to be publish on magazine, i am not ready at all,

i am sure he (my boyfriend) wouldn't let me to involve myself therein,

after a couple of minutes, i decided myself and sent a short msg for him and told him that i can't fulfill his intention to epitome myself in modelling field. he was too upset and disappointed. but i have my own right to determine what i am gonna be right?but i love his mind when he talked,'well, maybe this too early for you to be famous, then i hope we can collaborate on next-time'..thank you for the second chance,Mr Alex..i won't make you disappoint on future. 

those whom want to be his next-top model, just prepare yourself and ready for the next-interview made by him.Gud luck=)

Dreamt and Pain

Again and again. i dreamt about the weird things last night.

i am wondering what's the meaning of my dream. it is a portentus or what so? 

i was walking to somewhere with my family when i saw a snake moving from a tree to my area. dark-red colors and i ran my self together with my brother to home. and we were running to home when i saw another snake trying to get mine. now it is a green-white colors. i don't know how to explain it, but it so strange and i was pondering till now. 

well, i was bedridden for the whole night yesterday and this morning. Took my medicine and rest again and again. keep in silence because of my hoarseness voice and sore throat, less activities and movement because of headache and stomachache, and dysmenorrhea. huh, all of these made me plight and piteous. i even can't concentrate my study. pain made me interrupted. i have a feeling of pinch right now. my friends tend to placate my self but it wasn't work since its just ephemeral and my emotion is erratic. so in order to avoid my self from being ponderous, i just pull myself together with anything. how this could be end up?and how i can revise my study and take a seat for my exam in this condition?huh. i am starting to nervous and provoke myself now.sighing.huh.

i am in silence

i have fever since last evening yesterday. i have sore throat, experiencing dysmenorrhea too.
i wake up too early today..my mum had called me. i was in sub-sleeping during that time so i picked up my phone and i was too shocked when i can't talk either. no sound, no voice. i was confusing and blurred for a while. i ended up the call and sent a msg to my mum, told her that i have a flu-fever, sore throat and hoarseness voice. she replied me,'take care yourself,don't forget to take your enough rest and medicine..'..yups, she's always say the same words everytime i got fever. i appreciate it.thank you mama..

i was walking to my room when my senior has greeted me. 'what's happen to you yan?looks so pale.'ups, i tried my hard to hide my sick from anyone, but she knew me well, then she just smile when i smile to her. i created a sorrowed-smile, and i am gonna cry for this.

since i am experiencing all of these blue-symptoms, so the only things that i can do now is to silent my self from anyone. i can't talk, but i can smile for them. they just like to see my smile, i am appreciating it. now, i was taking my lunch with a cup of white coffee. it is called a lunch?huh. i have no appetite actually.. and i just missed to hang around Old-town white coffee with my family actually. my parent tend to bring me along them therein when i have fever. i already missed to dine there with my family=(

so today was my silence day. no talk and no joke like usually. it could be weird and unfamiliar, but i will try it. i am hoping for god's bless right now,amin~~

Stay by Estrella

i just love to hear and plays this song.
i even used this song for my blog's sound, my alarm clock, and also my phone ringtones.
and just now i am playing this song by myself using my acoustic guitar.its sound good and kinda fresh feeling.
i was in fever right now, but because i love this song too much, i just took out my guitar and played this song.
this is only the way for me to shed my fever-pain. so i did it and with my 'rock' voice due to flu, i just sang this song at all. but seemed that my bestfriend is going to admire me, just because my 'rock' voice,combined with my own style for this song. so i just made it using my own plucking and its really made me calmed and happy.
so here the lyric of this song,

Estrella- Stay

Sound straight from the twilight

Has me up all night

I can't fall asleep 'cause I keep thinking of you

And I saw a shadow outside my window and it's you.

[Chorus]

All my sorrows flew away

Hush, keep quiet, hear me say

I don't ever want you to go

Please stay

With the moonlight dancing free

And there's no one but you and me

There's no reason to go astray

Please stay.

Making up a story

It's the way you're looking at me

If you think that this is funny, it's just you.

Try and think about it,

If you're heart is closed don't lock it,

Keep your keys back in your pocket,

Think this through.

[Chorus]

Please stay with me

Just stay with me

and I will take you to Foreverland

Just stay

i enjoyed my self too much with this song. so if you wanna hear it, just search it from internet, sure you can find it therein.=)

Not feeling well.

i just wake up from my tedious slept. its was hurting me when i need to push my self for bedridden on my bed.

i don't want to sleep and just lay down my self on my bed actually, because i have a lot things to do, i need to prepare myself for my upcoming paper and i don't think i wanna waste my time right now. its kinda weird and uncomfortable feeling, engulfed my all body. 

but since i've a fever, i thought, i am gonna push my self to take my rest and just lay down on my lovely bed. i am experiencing a flu-fever right now, i got headache, unproduction cough and my throat was soring me everytime i coughed. at the same time, i have dysmorrhea that made me nausea and vomiting. huh, i don't think these will be recover within short time, its maybe within 2 to 3 days. what the kinda feeling ah.sighing. 

i just can't stand like this. seeing my bestfriend watching their Korean snow queen movie made me jealous at all. but what to do, they even didn't asked me to watch the movie together with them, instead asked me for my rest.

god,please help me for getting well as soon as possible. i don't like this kind of feeling.=(

Nephews

i miss my nephews.

i love my nephews and i just dreamt them a couple of minutes ago.

i have about 6 nephews, and we're so closed. they used to call me auntie. i had not seen them for 5 months. no wondered why i already missed them too much, especially my sister's nephews. i called them Asyid and Adi. both are hyperactive, but hyperactive in term of smart for me..i love to plays with them. and they just love to run around me and hug me. oh my god, i missed them too much.i wanna back to my home right now!uwaaaahhh..=(

my mum knew how much i missed them..therefore she used to call me and i was crying when i hear my nephews talking to me. i don't know how to envisage my feeling during that time, i just cried and maybe because i missed them too much, so i dreamt about them. 

its okey. i am gonna see them on may. so be patience and patience..=)

On our anniversary, i present you this.

Dear Noorlizam Jamlee.

Today is our first anniversary love. we had been through a very challenged time before but with the blessing of Allah, we still made the best for our love. we are so lucky, because we're not only made a love, but also found a friendship in our relationship. and there's no doubted, that our love is never part.so today i present you this with full of my heart..

Happy Anniversary Day 

Thank you for caring me, stay with me, and always loving me. wish our dream will come true and will be everlasting love. May god blessing us..amin~~~

wake up when the sun came down

Just like the plants and flowers that need the sun rays for their photosynthesis, i need them too. not for photosynthesis, but for getting some vitamin D or calciferol through it. i need them for maintaining the level of calcium production and resorption in my body system. that's our necessity okey.

i don't know what's going on with myself today...i  just wake up in the early of morning and feel so strange and weird. maybe because i took my slept earlier last night due to stomachache and headache, therefore i got over the vibe of today..i feel cold and calm refreshing my all body..i love the feeling of this and i saw the clouds moving from one part to others...the weather was awkful recently and i just can't live without sun rays actually. that made me tedious and fatigue, i even can't go outside there for hanging out. what to do, its going to be like that without our favors.

since i wake up too early today..so this time for me to review and revise of my study for my upcoming examination preparation. i had been wasted my time oftenly, therefore i should cover it by doing double-triple struggle study. nextweek will be my final okey, its fine. i am gonna catch it up, insyaAllah.

so, there's about two weeks left for my flight to Sabah. what the happy and excited feeling??i am gonna back to my hometown, seeing my beloved people. i feel glad and excited=)..so only for this time, i need to push my self for my final..be patience, be patience and be patience. that's the words i need for. orait. take a deep breathing than start my roles as a student. so bye-bye.=)

Eat, Pray, Love

Do you read a book of 'Eat, Pray, Love' by Gilbert??

i did it, not only the book, but also the film, starring by Julia Robert. the film based on the book,which is converted to the film session. and i was shocked because it seemed that the criticism that Gilbert used to improve his writing over the critics were making about his book by switched off a little things about the film contents. and it just made me taste and i got that vibe as much i did. i am obviously looking for Gilbert's books, since i read her first book. 

the story is great and mean, got over my taste and emotion. it might be tedious for those who don't know or hear about this book, people will only love this after get through it. we can get some morale herein. i am not kidding, i am experiencing it right now. i feel cool showering my body right now. 

if you want to fresh your mind or so on, go buy this book or just run for her film at theaters and feel them. i love to say that it's gonna make you satisfy because its all about our life, as human being. so find your meditation therein. chayok2!!!=)

Finally

Don't you feel like you're fall in love that leads you for marriage?

i just feel the pure feeling right now. merciful of couple, with blessing from Allah and finally brought us for blissful and peaceful. he was kind, compelling my attention and looked after me very well. he is enough sweet by my sight, sometime we're in battlefield, but its doesn't matter, we still can accepted each other. and completely, he's the one who gave me an awareness in life. noted that i am so stubborn,headstrong is mine. but he never switched over me, instead guided mine by his pure-love, patiently. i am appreciating him so much.

i rest from his cases.

people come and go just like the water flowing. lost and found is common in life. i had lost someone 3 years ago, but i am glad when i found someone in my present life. got some msg from the old-person made me funny at all, so hilarious and monotous. he just sent me some of my past-letters by his hand-phone and i don't belief how i can wrote something stupid and so sentimental. but i did it a couple of years ago. its was me, even my full-name and my signed were mentioned therein. noticed that everything has changed, myself, my attitude, feeling and life,anything has changed drastically since we broke up. and now i am my self, myself is mine. and the past already passed, so i rest from his cases for the rest of my life.

we're somewhere in town

Today was my last test of Biochemistry and Sport Nutrition.
realize that we're under stressful emotion recently, therefore me, and my bestie, Lydia and Cecilia, managed to hang out to somewhere in town. its not a big deals, we just set up and ran for that. its not too long, i guess we only took 5 hours for outing.and we got the fun there..
so what we had been there?

we took our lunch at KFC PKNS selangor. we ate a lunch value meals for only rm7 i thought. its so simple but enough satisfied us. later, we walked to PAS selangor and we're used to make fun and went to karaoke center. rm1 for 1 song is not a big deals actually, but since we wanted for relaxation, so we paid them rm15 for 15 songs. its enough pretty to release tension but when the credits of songs has finished, its seem like its not enough actually.=)

time has gone and we're decided to back to our college. now i was sleepy and thinking about my photoshoot session with someone by tomorrow. how it will could be? i had done well so far, hopefuly everything gonna be okey tomorrow.amin~~~

Final Tests

we have two tests by tomorrow. Biochemistry and Sport nutrition..


both are my favorite's subjects, but at the same time made me monotous..
i love them but my interested is inconsistent. sometime those made me enjoy and curios, but i was irresistible and unaccountability for sometime, i thought. the lecturer gave more effort and consolation for teaching us, but sometime i was damn tired and sleepy during his tutorials. i wondered, it might be effects my carry marks at all..no, please don't cut off my carry marks sir..=(

be prepare??
i am not sure for this. i had learnt much about these during our tutorials session, but there are some terms in Biochemistry and sport nutrition that we should master it and remember them. therefore, i am still in my process for keeping them in my memories permanently. hope tomorrow will be easy for me to recall them of my brainstorm. amin~~

Photoshoot with Sarah Mohd saleh

Yesterday i had a photoshoot session with sarah mohd saleh. she's my classmate in Bachelor.
we went to Putrajaya, took some photos there, and took fresh air there. realize that it was a good chance to improve my skills, so i went there and applied my skill there. less editing and touch up were mine. so here they are..

i can't wait to upload all the photos i taken yesterday.but student time made me busy at all. i have two tests by tomorrow, therefore, uploading the rest photos should need more time and of course, they will be publish on the next-day, day after tomorrow before i have another photoshoot with someone else on wednesday or thurday, if i am not mistaken,Insyaallah.
 so wait for the next photos by mine.tata~~~

Color's Mood: Today and Yesterday

i was outing for the whole day today. from morning to evening, went to the Plaza Alam Sentral with my bestfriend. we took some entertainment by shopping and walking to release our tension. stress has manipulated our brainstorm, therefore outing may help to minimize our stress. 

i like colorful, therefore i used to wear any custom color recently based on my mood. yesterday my mood is more to purple, therefore i pulled out any purple color custom from my wardrobe. look at me, i was smiling when i took my own pictures under the mirror...

Yesterday

i don't take too long to prepare or groom my self. i even can grooming my self within 10 minutes and i was simple as i am.therefore i just put a very simple grooming on my self. also i don't use too much make up on my face, i even didn't put any lipsticks on my lips. but it doesn't means i don't know how to manage or put make up on my face, totally wrong. when i have to perform songs or talks on the stage or function, i used to groom and make up mine by myself. its not difficult, but sometimes i feel fed up and crowded to use make up. therefore, i only put on make up on my face when i have some performances. easy right??=)

Today

and today my color's mood is green color. so i worn green custom as i am. i like green color because it can maximize our tension actually, i feel calm looking for it. so its done well=)

i need to manage my time properly. tomorrow i have a photoshoot session with someone at Putrajaya center. so tonight i should prepare some equipments for it. so i am going to take my rest now. GUd nite all~~~

Guitar

 Its was my passion, and i love it 'till i guess i can't live without it..

last night i played my guitar for 1hours, non-stop.

i was distressing when i pulled out my guitar and played songs for relaxation.

i used to play guitar for any songs every-time when i got tensed or tired. yups, i did it. and my bestfriend tend to capture my acts, while i played her with my new song.

so last night also i had created a new song with new concept. its just classic, like the rhythms of 'bitterheart' by zee avi,but i was my own concept with new style. and i thought its pretty suited with my voice.its mine..=)

why i spent too much money and time with this stuff??

well, some people used to title mine as,'an artistic girl'.so what's to doubt when people symbolize mine in that manner. yups,that's the answer, because i am an artistic person, that's the reason i did it. no wondered right.=)

not only this acoustic guitar, i even had a plan to buy an electrical guitar for my next-sponsorship yet. and also for my photography side-career. so people already noted about me in that manners.=)thanks for understanding mine=)

Melancholy

First of all, about the kitten that i just saw sadly seating in-front of our levels toilet.

i just stepped my foot there and accidentally, i saw a kitten seating over the machine waiting for sustenance and compassion. firstly i touched the kitten, and it looked fear and scared of me. i thought maybe it had been trauma in it's life before. i felt sympathy.back to my room and looking for some food but instead i didn't have any to feed the kitten. finally i took the biscuits for the kitten but unluckily, its not familiar with the type of stuff, and my help was over there. finally i returned my self to my room with  the feeling of melancholy and unintended, my tears came out from my eyes and compassion was conquering my self now. i feel sorry for the kitten. i don't know what will happen to the kitten by tomorrow. danger has anywhere else without know who's will be the victim. but i hope,there's nothing will be happen upon the kitten...

secondly, i am in moody right now. i even can't differentiate my feeling towards formal or informal matters.  i got bad tempered and the hottest 'temperature' has manipulated my limbic system. i turned in my self to be calm by doing some relaxation techniques but it doesn't effect me at all. i just feel bad right now, and he was the first person i talked about this. i knew what made him sad but i already done it and its happen right now.

thirdly, about CTU553 assignment. iam still in my way to complete the assignment. its about 25 to 30 pages per assignment, and we're dividing the tasks by assigned mostly 2-3 pages per person. and some of my team members already done their responsibility towards our group and now i was waiting for any help from others. please help me guys, i am gonna crying right now, but it doesn't means i will give up for this. i am still myself before,'never give up in my life'.that's will always be my main principles and i prays for Allah blessing right now.AMIN~~~~

All the lucky came from Bless

yeay!!!
the only things that i am going to say right now is, I LOVE MYSELF AS I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

i just created a video by myself  and really, i didn't expect to be successful like this!
its like a blossom that came down into my life and i got the brilliant result.
i am happy to be my self.and i love my self as i love my life. its doesn't means i wouldn't accept the fact that we will going 'somewhere' on the future, to return for god's soon. all that came to me right now were given by Him, and its all about the bless from Allah and luckily, all the things that i made became easy and simply to say, i made them easier by Allah blessing.

i am experiencing a big of blissful right now and hopefully its going to be last lasting in my life. Amin~~~

Psychology.

i spent a lots of my time for completing our groups' psychology project.

its took major of my efforts and energy, but its okey, because i love Psychology to much.

this time our psychology project is about to produce a video, which is contents of the techniques, how to cope problem with emotion, what's the proper techniques to achieve that, why people behaving weird, and so on. there's a lots of theme that we can relates with psychology. and this time i took 'Stress Relief Techniques' for our favorite project. and we gonna find some material for that. 

we just finished our shooting on last week..and its fun, yups that i required in my activities. 

me with two of my friend tend to have our shooting at our college park, simple venue but so calm. so we did our project perfectly last week and this week we gonna submit our project and i just completed it 80%, i need to record my voice then drag my voice records in the voice tract. its not too much difficult, because i love all about media, and some of my friend said,'u're artistic person', and i just smile for that.=)

well because i love psychology, so i think its not difficult to score and handle this subject.i just love this too much. so i am gonna works it by myself..=)

Borderline of Viva's Wellness

i just came back from my Viva's tests.and i got only a borderline result, 'nyawa-nyawa ikan' people said.

frust??no. i didn't. i have no feelings of frust for that. why?because i didn't prepare it well before. in addition, i got some of weird questions, in which i've never heard before!what's the matter??eii, i never learnt this laaa. and he's never taught us about the questions that i got just now!!huh, i got trouble for this subject since my year 2 started. our classmates which is consists of ex-diploma and ex-stpm student, always in trouble for this subject. we even don't have any basics related to physical fitness and this is our first time to learn about this. no wondered la why some of us used to be 'slow pick-up'. no wondered.

i like to learn something new in my life actually..but sometime comparisons made me fed up. and i don't think the learning process can be input in my mind. i don't like to make comparison,therefore i don't like if our classmates were comparing with others class. see the result now?mostly us got the 'hampeh' result!

i am okey if the lecturer has considered about us..but right now, i was upset for him. but its okey.i don't frust and never frust.so its done already.zaijian.

A moment of Mandarin and Psychology projects : lydia and nurol

what's we have done today??

This is my pictures with Nurol and Lydia...

 

we just love to relax and took some captured here.
these pictures are taken during our mandarin and psychology projects. as soon as our psychology have done, we're managed to relax our mind and took some pictures here. and we have some of pictures here, but i didn't put it here, you all can check it on my photoblog ,there's a lots of pictures therein.

while we were waiting for Zia and Atie (Mandarin's group), we just hanging around the park and its was spontaneously when we're decided to take pictures. well, its done already and we're going to face a very crazy time after this. less leisurely but increase of activities, its must be stressful right?..

i am not the person who always like to complaint or sighing actually, but sometime when we got stressful and tension time, basically people started to behave weird or simply put, 'the behave that's is not you'...

so today i have spent lots of my time here, with Nurol and lydia, also atie and zia...we smile and laugh a lots here, and now, the time has gone and we gonna have our own busy time. so i already missed this moment...
then hope to have an enjoyment time like this soon. May god blessing us=)

Mandarin and Psychology Video Projects

we have done our shooting today...its took 4 hours i guess.. 2hours for psychology and 2hours for mandarin projects..i was pretty knew and familiar thing related to video, music or photos..but now i was blurring my self,since i have a complicated time management because i have a miserable physical test by tomorrow evening which is called VIVA. its based from Wellness subject and its so difficult due to the practically physical involvement. we need to learn much about the proper wellness in this world, also must enough well in anything related muscles of the body.

i got only A- of subject related to muscles during my diploma course. i thought i learnt it much during my diploma but when i took degree and one more time i need to study about muscles, i have revised and reviewed them for more than 100 times i guest. but this time is not easy like before. now i am learning something new in my life..not only about muscles, but also about the anatomy and physiology, on how to determine the disease due to the physiology, what's the exercise that suits and can fit for all average people. how to coach people, treat them for medical disease and so on..i have trouble during this subject. and what's more?tomorrow will be the physical test, and i am still here not confirming  my self either i have enough preparation or so on. i love to make exercise at gym by using some fitness grams rather than coach people to have their exercises. i am dying soon.

on my first assigment of this subject, i've already got full marks for my aerobics dance performance. its awesome and i thought i got the marks so easier you know. but when the VIVA is coming by tomorrow,i am the first person who will crying in-front of the lecturer. maybe,and begging may also occurs.hhaha. oh, i think it too much till i lost my mind for a moment. well, wellness subject is easy course actually, but maybe i am still need some time to learn and familiarize my self with this new environment. its okey, tomorrow maybe gonna be my miserable tests, but final exam must gonna be my easier tests..insyaAllah, i will ensuring that from this moment. so, catch it up! 

then fine, i am ready to take a physical tests by Tomorrow=)

NOOR

why i loves the word of 'Noor'?..

i loves Noor because its all about me and him=)

why i said like that?..that's because my fullname is started with the word 'Noor'...my name is Noor Azeanthy..so,Noor can be found in front of my name...to add up, my boyfriend's name also started with the word of 'Noor', Noorlizam...so our name are matched right?and if we have our own child soon, we gonna put the same word in-front of their name too..that's sweet right??hehe,,,insyaAllah...=)

Noor..i just loves the word, really..there are something about me therein..i meas, myself and my life...yups really...i have my own self, my self is just me...i knew, the word of Noor gave me the strength in my life..yups, i am pretty tough and strong to face anything in my life..Noor gave me the blessed from Allah..and i just loves it so much...

what's inside of my name?

a strength and spiritual that made me lucky and brightness since my mum gave birth me on this world...yups,my parent also said the same thing,they said that i am always gave them bliss,lucky  and brilliant life, and i am happy for that..means that my birth on this world was meaningful for them..grateful for Allah..=)

THANK YOU ALLAH FOR THE BLESSED...
i am gonna be  and always be a good girl..insyaAllah...

Programming the pupil of Primary school

i need to arrange a program for the pupil of primary school???

well, that's happen to me right now when my mum had called me and asked me about the on-going program that i need to plan and accomplish during my semester breaks... its seem like i need to implement big program for my pupils soon. yups, as i mentioned before, i am going to be a teacher at my dad's primary school.yups, three month duration as a replacement teacher is not a short time, i thought i am gonna freaking my self since there are no internet network and celcom coverage in the sub-urbs place, which is means i even can't keep in touch with my family, friends and my boyfriend..i am gonna feel alone soon but i need to face it strongly...=(

okey, i am talking about the on-going problem that i am gonna arrange and execute soon...the management of school had called me for an important program for their students...and its all about on how to improve the quality of pupils life..so they asked for my help in that case...therefore i thought i am gonna plans to have a motivation session with the pupils together with their parents during my semester..then i need to ask my father (as a headmaster of the school) to provide some help in terms of finance and subsidies to them..may be these can help the pupils quality life. but this is only one of my ideas, i have a lots of things to do acually..so no need to think hard about this so far. i have about 1 month from now before i start my job as a teacher on May 2011..

then now i rest my mind now, think about it after i finish my upcoming examination....tata~~

Plant on the Tree

i just hanging out around my college today...and i saw beautiful plant on the tree...
it was holding by the tree and seem like it can't live without the tree..
so i talked with my self,'i am going to shoot the plant outside there..'..so i took my DSLs together with me, then i shot it..

i didn't climb the tree.but i just shoot them from my 'zoom in' site, and i got the result above..
i just love to capture a plant or things, so sometime i take my time to have a fresh air, while my hand holding a DSLs...its was me.but i am not addicted by bringing DSLs along with me for a whole time, i just bring it out when i have intent to shoot sometime valued..just for fun..

well, i just loves to write something that i interested...therefore, i blogged my self right now.but because of ongoing jobs, i need to limit and control myself..yups, i am gonna be a teacher during my 4 months semester break, there's no internet network and handphone's line on the sub-urbs. i am facing a complicated time during my lesson..but its okey, i am gonna familiarize my self with the new environment..so, i need to refrain myself during that's time...i'll be okey..=)

Blogging

I just love to blog in the early morning today...its made me fresh=)

i was blogging since 2005 when i refrained my self for blogging on 2007 due to privacy matters...and my ex-blog actually belonged to me with someone else, but now i'd forgot about the blog already,totally!...after a couple of years, i used to blog again until today, with other blogger account, not only one acc but i have two of them..azeanthy.blogspot.com and sweetcoupleblogger.blogspot.com...that's i managed to created my new blog sweetcoupleblogger.blogspot.com this year, and the contents of the blog were based on my photo and songs collection. its all about my passion, and this blog is only for any confession or my story with a few of pictures..

i started to blog since a couple of years ago because i just love to share something with others..i have a lots of story to share about, but students' life made me engaged in time...students' time was always running out, same with me, i need to rush myself for crucial things since i got involved in photography, editor, writing, students' politic and some else, 'till i did not have time for blogging, even sometime i'd forgot about blog!basically, i am the busy person but busy person not in terms of noisier and Busy body yaa, i am busying because of my responsibilities. therefore, only when i have enough time or a very-very free time, then i start to create an entry even two entries of blog per day..=)

wow, i talked too much today, maybe because i was exciting for my upcoming examination..there's only left 3 weeks before examination and after my exam, i am gonna fly away to Sabah and starts my job as a teacher. it doesn't matter, the important thing is i am gonna spend my time with someone else..heee..so my exam is coming soon, therefore i need to finish my assignment as soon as possible right now. i gotta stop here..Xaijian=)

H1N1 Viruses

H1N1 is going to attack UiTM students???

we're shocked of this issue right now. i was writing and talking with my group members when suddenly my friend called my name and told me about this issue. she asked me for helped and i made it by myself because i knew that's is my responsibility as a Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Pelajar Kolej..i knew its dangerous and i am gonna take a risk for that.. but i was worrying about my students health actually.so i walked to them and provided them with some of masks for their temporary protection. 

what's actually H1N1?

H1N1 is an influenza A that was initially referred to as swine flu. someone who'd infected with H1N1 may experience some symptoms such as flu, fever, cough, fatigue and muscle aches dramatically. this is not the common flu-fever, because its can passed from person to person just like other flu strains. this flu was dangerous due to lack of H1N1 vaccine nowadays. so peoples are advice to be more careful.

I thought our colleague gonna be restless and wandered from this moment because of this viruses. we gonna stay indoor and use the mask every-time and everywhere we come out from our room. that's so mysterious because even me didn't know who actually the infected person..what's we should do now, just be careful and prays for our safety and health. i just worried about my self..and all my friends health...

Mask gonna be our 'bodyguard' from this moment..so, just catch it up=)

Friendship

I just created some thumbnails pictures last night..its so simple but meaningful...and this is only one of them...

this pictures are taken during our birthday celebration with Dayah and Yusuff last month...and what actually the meaning of this pic?..well, from the pic, we can see that's there are two person, in which, the male was cleaning his self because of the messed, while the female was trying to help the male to cleared it out..so here we can see the bonding of friendship among them...=)if i not mistaken..=)

so, the words inside of the thumbnail actually created by myself, in which, gave meaning that true friendship will never end, until this world end....its pretty enough to describe that friendship is a powerful and long-lasting relationship among people...

so, for more pictures regarding friendship, please visits my photoblog sweetcoupleblogger.blogspot.com..i have many of them therein..so check it out!=)

For the rest of my life : NL

I have full classes today..started on 8.30pm until 4pm, non-stop without rest. so once i back to my room from my classes, i just taken my bath, prays and talked with my bestfriend...within half an hour, my eyes started to drooped, and my body remains to be fatigue. therefore, i took my slept as soon as possible...huh, i felt refresh right now...but during my slept, i dreamed something about NL....

on the beach of summer air, me and NL have our picnic and we just love to walked in the beautiful and fresh small garden...i still remembered, when he knelted to the ground and pulled out the ring then said 'Honey, are you willing to marry me?'..wow,wonderful!its just like a love-story of Romeo and Juliet, and really, the words that's came out from his lip before, is same with the words he used to proposed me in my dreamed!suddenly i heard something nice tune..where..where..oh actually, i heard my HP ringing around and my dream stops there.....

i wake up and take my prays...finished of my pray then suddenly my dream came out into my memories again...and again...i was thinking now, what's the meaning of the dream?is it a signs of our faith or what?...

my lip suddenly created a smile..very big smile..that's i thought, i am experiencing a blissful feeling now..yups, i just feel something weird in my self, its nice and bliss..something special..and the situation and the way he treat me in my dream, made me felt that i want it to be happen again and again, in my life for the rest of my life..and when i back to my reality, the only words that came out from my lip is...Ya Allah, i hope my dream will be come true..InsyaAllah...=)

New blogger skin

I already used my old blogger skin for a year..its so nice but sometime we need to change something in our life so that we're not boring and satisfy with it. furthermore, creating something new in life is a normal phenomenon...
right??=)
so today i just changed my blog skin, there no more scenes as my background, no more scenes behind of my words..now i thought my taste has changed to a very simple skin one. white-soft-colors made me calm and i just love to renew them=)
As my blog skin has changed, i thought i gonna changed my routine too..heavy preparation for upcoming examination is my habits from this moment. i don't means to force and push my self but i think, that's the only way for me to pursue my goals for this semester.
so after this and soon, no more play and games, but education is my priorities...so i am gonna make it real now.
InsyaAllah....wish me lucky yaa.May god blessing us...chayok2!!!

Complicated Life As Biochemistry

Today i took Biochemistry subject for test 2.and the questions were really excited me and made me blurred sometime.i thought mostly my classmate felt the same way i'm experiencing now.yups, really, this subject sometime can 'kill' us by its complicated content and no wondered la why some of my batch student had dropped this subject for this semester. 

just looks at the picture above, seem that the way and dimension of the DNA were complicated that sometime made my head spinning around.well, this is BIOCHEMISTRY..so complicated and just now, i found out that's my life also was so complicated, just like the Biochem subject!

sometime i can't predicted what's i am gonna be soon. its was complicated since my field now is so expanded and have their own branches. yups, sport science have their own direction and branches, some can be medical, training, education and so on.just now i just found out that's i loves Psychology too much!that's because i like to psyche up people mind..and i just like to play around this field.hehe=)

urmm...my life was complicated now, sometimes i wandered in the darkness, try to find the answer for all questioning in my mind..but when i think it twice, even a thousand time, only a couple of words i can say now, which is, i like something that can make me challenged and aroused...therefore, i loves Biochemistry actually...

and for me, there nothing can stop and make me astray away from my direction, till my own self stop it.so catch it up guys..i am gonna make it simple and easier as i can..insyaAllah=)

INSYAALLAH (we'll find the way)

Every time you feel like you cannot go on 

You feel so lost , That your so alone 

All you is see is night 

And darkness all around 

You feel so helpless 

You can`t see which way to go 

Don`t despair and never loose hope 

Cause Allah is always by your side 

Insya Allah 2x 

Insya Allah you`ll find your way 

Everytime you can make one more mistake 

You feel you can`t repent 

And that its way too late 

Your`re so confused,wrong decisions you have made 

Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame 

Don`t despair and never loose hope 

Cause Allah is always by your side 

Insya Allah 2x 

Insya Allah you`ll find your way 

Insya Allah 2x 

Insya Allah you`ll find your way 

Turn to Allah 

He`s never far away 

Put your trust in Him 

Raise your hands and pray 

OOO Ya Allah 

Guide my steps don`t let me go astray 

You`re the only one that showed me the way, 

Showed me the way 2x 

Insya Allah 2x 

Insya Allah we`ll find the way

what's time now??

what's time now??now is 3am o'clock and i'm still standing in-front of my laptop doing nothing.
just like an insomnia patient, now i'm experiencing the same situation they have. i tried to take my rest since 2am ago but what happen to me?i laid myself on my bed but still i can't slept, even my eyes can't close up. and seeing him slept tightly from the skype made me jealous and i am gonna cry for this.

this maybe because of the white coffee that's i'd taken a couple of hours ago. yes, its was cafein, that's interrupting my sleeping habits just now. now i feel my headache is growing up in my head and i have a little short of breathing just now. huh, now i just sit down and staring something for my progressive relaxation application, while listening for slow music rhythms. i hope i can take my sleep after this ASAP, since tomorrow i will be an Emcee for our colleague program so i need to take rest now.

'may god blessing me'